"That little angel who enlightened my life"

I still remember her beautiful smile,the way she used to play with her blue ribbons,the way she looked at me and played me are one of the most beautiful memories of my life.Going back three years of my life from now a beautiful girl came in my life ,we used to go in same van on half day .Her home was second last spot and mine was the last.Me a girl engulfed in my own thoughts always as I used to be, couldn't ignore the sweet innocence  of her eyes.Observing her playing gave me a very unusual soulful sort of pleasure which can only be felt.In observing her I forgot to notice that in the eyes of our society she was different, yeah I never noticed that she used to enjoy herself with her water bottle strap and her blue ribbons but never with the children of her age.I thought she was isolating herself but as a matter she just a child of five years was facing the harshities of life.She don't knew how to call her name,she don't knew how to convey that she is hungry , that she want to go washroom.She don't know what are numbers and alphabets.But does all this make her any less than a child? Completely a big no,I still remember she has a joint family and when we go to drop her , everyone would be standing at the doorstep waiting to pickup her first and adore her.

Me a medical student who knew it's all genetics used to curse my conscience that she is such a cute child why you did this to her my Lord,how will she gonna face this world on growing up.Everyone gonna break her heart, this world is harsh.I used to see at her , sometimes she used to cry because she was growing up this vulnerability of nature thrust upon her.At times I used to question myself what if she was mine child.The very thought just questioned my conscience and I rather end the thought then conferring with the conclusion.                                          It was the month of January we were in our school's  physics lab, suddenly an announcement was done to announce half day because of the sudden grief full demise of a girl of kindergarten.Everyone was like it was really sad including me ,but after I went back home a message appeared in our class's WhatsApp group and there was the pic with the name of the girl who left for the heavens abode.Suddenly at an instance I was shook off my whole senses,it was mine dearest Agam❣️😭😭😭 whose smile used to make up mine tired mood lively...I miss you Agam,love you, wherever you are you must know your beautiful innocent smile will be always immortal in my memories....

Still I feel questioned by my own conscience ,the fear is still there and I guess remain that all this not happen with mine genes passage to mine baby ...I don't know how people put on the courage to accept genetic disorders, it's conscience's murder to abort and a whole life emotional traumatic challenge to raise your child....I just can't be at peace with God ,he is so unjust on this....~simranChopra(dedicated to an angel in heaven now,mine Agam❣️)